there is no turning back

give me a moment

I wish my brain would work. I wish my body would work.
I wish they would work in symmetry and make things right.
I wish I could have stayed in that moment, with the warmth and smells and comfort.
Things could be so different right now.
Still, I am here, right now, and it is how it is.
I am the only person with the power to change it.
I’m just too powerless.